-26.5lbs since Jan 1 2013
I feel like I’ve entered an alternate reality or something. I’m actually losing weight? What is this devilry?!
I know. I’m shocked. I’m losing weight on a weight-loss blog. But to be honest with y’all, I stepped on the scale this morning and went, “That can’t be right.” Stepped off, took it into the living room, stepped on the scales that tell me my actual weight – which never quite match up to the weight that I’m counting, because every scale gives a different count, WHY, but it was close enough – and then went and stepped back on The Zero Scale, and…
Yeah. It Zeroed out.
So I apparently lost 5lbs this week. Wow.
I’m pretty impressed with this! I honestly didn’t expect to do this well on the AVX Diet. (Speaking of: the second-month’s review’s coming up later this week. Keep an eye out for it.) And I’ll tell you, I’ve had more X Days than I should have.
But I’m still kind of at a loss for words, because I’m just about 11 or 12lbs away from that 100lb weight loss from my highest-ever weight. And that’s where I dropped the ball in 2011 (I think? When I hit 349/348lbs and then got changed onto 15mg Mirtazapine and shot up about 40lbs again.) I was starting to worry that I’d never get back down here again; that I’d constantly be stuck in the 380s and 390s; that I’d be stuck up near the 400lbs and 30 stones and just be huge and fat and massive and unhappy for the rest of my life.
Now I’m kind of daring to look at everything with hope again. It’s a little scary, and freeing. Maybe I can do this, after all.