babble, mental health, story of my life

October Sucks

actually weighed myself yesterday morning so that I've got a start weight for a week of meal replacement products from Exante that I've to review, and it was... well. Not at, but close enough to, my highest-ever weight of 449lbs, that I'm now just sort of staring at the screenshot above and going, "It's been seven years? It's ONLY been seven years, and I managed to regain almost 100lbs - as well as losing some/regaining some/losing some/regaining some etc ad nauseum?!"

My Aunty Helen (left) with my big sister, Linda, on Linda's wedding day, 2014
babble, mental health, photos, story of my life

In Which I’m Grieving The Loss Of A Family Member

This is not the greatest start to 2018. Not by a long shot. Please bear in mind that I'm still grieving my cat, Twig. I was getting ready to go back to college this morning. Had an appointment at physiotherapy to see what they could do to help my knees (stretches and exercises to strengthen… Continue reading In Which I’m Grieving The Loss Of A Family Member

babble, bicycle, body talk, food, mental health, story of my life

In Which My Life Is On Pause

It's been just over two weeks since Zero died, but it feels like a lifetime. I didn't realise that grief did this to you; I didn't realise that it made you feel like you were walking through a fog, like your feet are sticking in quicksand, and you're getting sucked down a little more with… Continue reading In Which My Life Is On Pause

babble, body talk, mental health, story of my life, swimming, Zero Excuses

In Which I Haven’t Gone Off The Deep End

My friend Zero and I on a Chocobo in Final Fantasy XIV: A Realm Reborn. I honestly thought his death would push me off the wagon, into the deep end, under the bus; whichever the correct metaphor is. I've never had to deal with grief like this before. I've never had a friend die. The… Continue reading In Which I Haven’t Gone Off The Deep End