Y’know how I posted that entry a couple of weeks ago about the fact that I wasn’t really hungry?
Can I just take a moment to upgrade that to, worryingly, “I’m having to remind myself to eat”?
Before, when I wasn’t hungry, I was meaning, I wasn’t hungry between my meals. Now, I’m not even getting hungry for my meals. If I was still living at home with my Mum or Dad cooking my meals, or me having to cook for my Mum and Dad, then I’d be fine, because I’d have more than just me to worry about.
But the past couple of days, I’ve just been going for my walk and then coming home and reading my Kobo or sitting around playing my video game, and not realising what time it is, because I’m not even hungry, and it’s, like, 23:45 or something, and the last time I had anything to eat was twelve hours ago.
This isn’t a good thing. I’m well aware that eating too little is as bad for your health and weight loss as eating too much. I need to eat to fuel my body, because, duh, I have a BMR. And because I’m a rather large lady, I have a rather large BMR.
Just being awake during the day means I need to eat more than a normal person just to fuel my basic bodily functions. Stupid science.
But anyway, yes.
I like the fact that I’m not inclined to snack between my meals anymore, although I can eat the fruit that stocks my cupboards at the start of the shopping week if I’m so inclined.
Not eating at meal times? I’m not so much a fan. I’m literally having to set alarms for dinner time so that I remember to get up and make something to eat, otherwise I just won’t be hungry enough to notice that it’s dinner time.
I’m not sure what’s causing it. My therapist wanted me to come off of my Venlafaxine (Effexor) as well as coming off of the Mirtazapine – oy. I only just STARTED the Venlafaxine. I’m going to assume that it’s a withdrawal symptom. But I need an appointment with Dr. David anyway, so I’ll double check it with him when I’m in, anyway.
And in the meantime, go and get something to eat, as it’s 7pm, and I haven’t had anything to eat since about 11am.
Where’s a brick wall when you need one? I need to bash my head for a while.