It’s Saturday night.
Do you know what I imagine most “normal” 27-year-old girls are doing at 9:10pm on a “normal” Saturday night?
(Normal, in my head means: not married, no kids. Employed, living in their own place. With or without a significant other of whatever sex.)
I imagine they’re having a drink while they’re getting their make-up on. Maybe they’re already dressed, having a giggle with their friends.
What they’re not doing is sitting in on their computer playing Mafia Wars and trying to get more people to join their Mafia.
I feel like an old woman. I feel like I was never a proper teenager: I never really had a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I never got kissed (until I was 20!) and I never had sex. I never went to clubs.
In fact… I pretty much did what I’m doing now, except it was a shared, family computer, and Mafia Wars didn’t exist then. If somebody else was on the computer, I’d be reading a book, doing homework, watching TV…
I feel like I never got to really be a proper 20something, either. I’ve always been so caught up in, “Oh my God I’m so fat, I can’t-” that I’ve never really done anything, which has led to me getting fatter and fatter, which has led to me sitting in my bedroom on a Saturday night with my back too sore to go out and dance, playing Mafia Wars, thinking, “Holy crap, I’m going to turn 30 in 2013,” and wondering if I’m ever going to lose weight.
Wondering if I’m ever going to have a life.
I’m sick of being bored.
I’m sick of being sick.
I know how you feel. I don’t have any friends and I’ve never been to clubs. I always tell my partner that and he replies “They aren’t that great” But it’s something that I want to be able to try out for myself. I did have boyfriends but since high school I’ve had no friends and I used to spend Friday and Saturday night on the computer even if I had a boyfriend as he would had friends to go out with.
That is how I put on weight was through boredom. I would just eat and eat and eat hoping that it would make me feel better.
Sounds like a good Saturday night to me
If i wasnt working lastnight thats pretty much what i’d have been doing. I wouldnt want to be going out to some club though so i suppose that sux for you but if you do want to go then…. er just go to one? 
What you got to loose? It’ either be fun and youd meet people and go back or suck and youd never have to show your face there again.
Hi Tracy, Normal? Normal? What’s that? When I was 27, I was married, 3 young children and used to dream about all these “career girls” who were out there in the world living the jet set lifestyle and with men fluttering around them. They were obviously having a fulfilling life and nothing like me stuck at home and watching the telly…
Quick survey, I’ve got a 28 year old visiting me and she spent Saturday night watching the IT Crowd on her computer.It’s not scientific, but I can draw wild conclusions like the rest of ‘em.
I think everyone thinks everyone else is out there having a great time, but the important thing is to enjoy the time you’re having, and of course playing computer games is not time wasted, but time spent honing useful skills and spent socialising with other like minded people. (My name is Heather and I’m a faunaholic
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Lol at the comment above. Now i can say i spend so much time “honing useful skills” rather than “playing games” It sounds soo much better
tracy your story is so like mine, holly told me about you let us help because if i can do it you can too
elaine