Weekly Weigh-In #29: August 1, 2011
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25st 6lbs +2lbs -26lb (-11.79kg) |
I was thinking of lying, and saying that I’d stayed the same this week. That’s easier than saying I’d gained 2lbs, but…
A lie’s a lie. What’s the point in that? That’s lying to me, and lying to you.
So I gained 2lbs this week.
That’s pretty bad, but to be honest, I had a pretty bad week. I didn’t really track much of my food, and I’ve had to cut back on my exercise, too, because I have tendinitis in my heel – feckin’ great, right? – so I’m not going on the elliptical before my classes, because doing my classes is painful enough.
(I’m actually not sure if it is painful, or if it’s the chili pepper cream I’ve been prescribed. I’m gonna go to Zumba tomorrow without the cream, and see if my heel burns like it did at Spinfit yesterday. Then I’ll be able to tell.)
But other than the tendinitis… well. My food has been crap. Yesterday, I ate a whole heap of junk: donuts and onion rings (crisps) and crispy duck pancakes and spring rolls for my dinner and yeah. Yesterday, I just had cravings, and gave into them.
The rest of the week, it’s mostly been snacking, instead of bingeing. Having a potato scone with butter and jam with my lunch, or a pack of crisps with my lunch. I’ve had takeaway twice this week. Most of our meals have been store-bought, instead of home-cooked.
We know the stuff we have to change. Things like cooking instead of buying store-bought crap. It’s hard, to stand in the kitchen for 30 minutes, and prepare a meal, though. Bending over the counter to chop the vegetables is agony for me. It was easier when we lived in Ireland and we had the dining room in the kitchen; I could sit at the table and chop the vegetables. Here, we don’t. The counters are too tall to sit on a chair and chop. I have to stand and bend over, and my back doesn’t like when I bend over too long.
But I suppose I’m gonna have to start doing it anyway, because I’m getting sick of the stuff we’re buying: tortellini and sauce? Bleh. Tomato-based sauces are low-calorie, yes, but they’re boring as hell. Mum keeps buying the meat-free type of tortellini, too, which means CHEESE AND SPINACH, yuck. Scotch pies, urgh. Crispy duck kits. Ready meals.
All of these things, I’m getting bored with. I need to start cooking again. I need to convince my lower back to stop being a whiny bitch and let me do stuff that involves standing up in one spot for any length of time.
I need to convince my entire body to stop trying to sabotage me.
“Have some pain!” my body says, as I’m trying to exercise to lose weight.
“I’d rather not,” I reply, and work through the pain anyway.
But it’s really hard, you guys. It really is painful, to have the chronic back pain and now this pain in my heel as well as all the other stuff.
I just wanna be fit and healthy.
I need to stop sabotaging myself.
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August 1st, 2011 at 6:56 pm
Hey Tracy
I know the feeling. All I can do is NOT buy the stuff I love, because otherwise, I WILL eat it, without exception. So I find it good to make out a weekly meal-plan, and only buy the stuff for those. Literally. Because if I have butter, sugar and flour, but no biscuits, I will actually bake some myself. Even at midnight.
But last week, we only got veg, proteins, pulses. I got fruit snacky things and nuts, and I will try eating smaller portions, more often, in order to avoid binging on crap or “needing” sugar/ carbs.
Also, maybe try Chromium supplements, they apparently reduce desire for sugar as it helps even out your sugar levels so they dont spike and drop suddenly.
Finally, maybe peel veg in the sitting room, buy a card table or something maybe if it helps. Good luck!
August 2nd, 2011 at 1:52 pm
Yvonne- thanks for the comment. :) The main problem I have is that I\’m still living with my parents (at 28!) and they aren\’t on diets. :( They buy in things like little chocolates that I can take a couple of here and there when I\’m in the fridge picking up my cherries or sports drinks on the way to the gym. They sometimes buy crisps, and I LOVE crisps, and they keep \’em in the back room where I keep my Tony Ferguson stuff.
It\’s annoying. My willpower was really good the first month of doing Tony Ferguson, and now… not so much. I\’ve been taking a Chromium supplement for more than 2 months now! It really helped me the first month, too. I don\’t so much crave things now, but… eat them anyway. It\’s pretty annoying. I need to get myself addicted to fruit again. XD
August 2nd, 2011 at 10:53 pm
I know you live with them…I find it hard to believe that they wouldn't try and help you a bit, considering you are making SUCH a great effort. But…my parents are like that too. My parents called me fat for years, and yet they supplied me with junk at the same time. Now that I'm visibly getting thinner and trying, my mother leaves packs of chocolate bars in my old room for when i visit. I have given them back to her. I also eat things out of habit but am trying to imagine the sheer amount of exercise needed to burn off the 'desired treat'. It sometimes works….sometimes. :)
Have you talked to your parents about this? If its a really stupid question I apologise, but I have said this to my mum plenty, and she eventually stopped buying stuff like that for me.
Keep it up Tracy, you are a motivation for many many people, including me.
August 2nd, 2011 at 11:04 pm
I've asked them not to buy in the stuff, because THEY need to lose weight, too, but… yeah. Doesn't quite work. Alas. My Mum isn't quite as bad as yours! The stuff gets left in the kitchen/utility room, and not my bedroom!
It's not their fault, REALLY, though – it's me going to the kitchen and picking things up out of boredom and habit. (And hunger. Hunger sometimes happens!)
Mostly, the stuff I eat isn't even bought for me – it's bought for them, but it's multipacks, which allows me to eat some. Oh dear. :|
I think it's just a case of me needing to put my food down with myself, steeling my willpower, and not sabotaging myself – and not blaming anyone else for my shortcomings! Or being willing to spend an extra hour or two in the gym every week to work off what I eat that I shouldn't. One or the other. :)
I'll get it right one of these days, promise! xx